"There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real,
Or if anybody feels the way I feel.
I need inspiration,
Not just another negotiation."
Music and Lyrics, Way Back Into Love
im so tired of being disappointed and let down.
maybe i should just stop trying :/
"Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn’t stop for anybody."
Stephen Chbosky
"I’m the one that’s got to die when it’s time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to."
Jimi Hendrix
Can’t Take My Eyes Off Of You - Jae Park
I remember first hearing him perform at PAC Poetry Night during the Fall—my instant reaction was to whisper to Jocy, “He’s my husband now.”
His voice is so amazing.
(Source: byunbaekhyeon)
i have a bad habit of putting all my eggs in one basket.
i can keep my scholarshipp!!!!! :D weeeeeeeeeeeee!
they just dont know me. and i dont know them.
but maybe if we all knew each other, we’d all be friends.
i dont know what to do.
better luck next time
im so frustrated with my performance this semester. i started out really well and could have had the grades that i wanted but gosh darn it. i just didnt give enough effort or time into labs. and thats just bringing me down a whole lot. lecture/exams are no problem. if our school had only lectures for the sciences, i’d be pretty well off. but man, labs. i hate labs. especially bio lab; its basically another class -.- and chem lab, im disappointed that didn’t put more care into it since im better at that than bio.
but now its the end. freshman year as a whole is coming to a close in two days. it was a strange year. settling somewhere new. trying to figure out where i fit in. disappointments with people here, but at the same time made worthwhile friends. changing certain views on life. learning what my values and priorities are. struggling with emotions. learning more about people and what truly makes a “good person. and just mostly, rediscovering and reshaping myself.
freshman year was definitely not what i thought out to be. i imagined the whole hollywood scene of college…but more toned down. haha and im not too sure how i feel about it. i guess it was mostly a let down. this school and the way it works was a disappointment. basically i just had a really hard time trying to figure out where i fit in because everyone seemed to be all the same. in personality and priority. there was just no variation or diversity as i had hoped. and because the school is so small, its basically like a high school, with cliques, groups, gossip, what happened at what and with who. small trivial, insignificant things seem to matter or weigh a lot here. and im not the person for those things. just straight up redundancy everywhere. i don’t fit in with the pacific scene here; i quite frankly dont really belong here. theres not much of a life here and everyone does the same thing, and the groups…are just not the kind i like or fit with.
but its okay. i’ve met a handful of individuals who have made it worthwhile to be here. and im really glad i met them. as unsatisfying as the college life here was, im hoping it’ll get better and i make the best of it. academic wise…it’s only going to get harder. no curve from now on basically hahaa…socially, i think i’ll be fine wherever i go.
cheers to the end of freshman year 2011-2012.
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